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After a Lifetime (NC-17) Print

Written by December

07 January 2012 | 46599 words | Work in Progress

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Pairings: Faramir/Boromir, Faramir/Aragorn.

Disclaimer: Alas, none of the characters or settings belong to me.

Warnings: Angst, underage characters, non-con, mild het, Boromir swears a lot.

Summary: You once took a blind dive into the unknown. But would have you offered your love to the one you worship, had you known the price he would have to pay for loving you back? And when all was over, would you be blind to see a new road lying at your feet?

Notes: Book canon.

Thanks to LJ for beta on Chapter 1.


Book One. Brotherhood

‘There are two tragedies in life.
One is to lose your heart’s desire.
The other is to gain it.’

George Bernard Shaw


Chapter 1. A Little Less Conversation

“I am telling you, they were looking at you! And I mean – looking,” Boromir gave a throaty laugh and clapped his brother on the shoulder as they walked down a shady palace corridor.

Faramir blushed but said nothing, for he too had noticed how the maidens were eyeing him earlier that day, had heard their laughter and excited whispers. It both thrilled him and made him uneasy. Only recently had he started to develop an interest in such matters, and the whole business still seemed somewhat awkward and embarrassing. Fresh out of childhood, he was not at all used to this sort of attention.

Meanwhile Boromir winked at him and pressed on: “They are visiting for just a week, you know. I wouldn’t miss the chance if I were you.”

“Miss the chance to do what, brother?” Faramir asked exasperatedly. He did not appreciate the way the older brother made fun of him over this highly sensitive subject. Secretly, he had hoped that a lady’s affection would make him look more grown-up in Boromir’s eyes. Alas, he had naively overestimated his brother’s capability for consideration, as usual.

“To do what! Pray don’t tell me you do not know!” Boromir was so obviously enjoying himself. His taunting was good-natured, of course, but it was taunting all the same. “You do, surely?”

“I… well, of course.”

“And…?” Beaming, Boromir raised his eyebrows, awaiting further explanation. He had turned around, and was now walking almost backwards to see the better into the boy’s face.

“Let me be! For Valar’s sake, it is not as if you actually expect me to talk of it.”

“Believe me, brother, once you get a taste of what they have to offer, it will be the only thing for you to speak of day and night.” The young man laughed again and shook his head amusedly. He still marveled at the recent changes that had befallen his little brother.

Faramir could not see it, of course, but in the last couple of years he had become very different. First a charming child, he was now turning out to be an exceptionally handsome youth. Although very alike to Boromir he appeared, there was a special, gentle loveliness to his looks that was his alone. The same grey eyes, same noble features, same shiny raven hair, same tall and agile frames they sported. Yet whereas Boromir had always had around himself an uncomplicated air of power and dominance, so fitting a great warrior, Faramir’s fair face and grace of movement produced an allure that was harder to describe. More than anything, it was his bright intelligent eyes, for he could look at a person like they alone mattered to him.

Now, as nature was busy preparing him for manhood, there emerged the first hints at how he would look when fully grown. Faramir had stretched taller and broadened in shoulders, which made his still protruding hip bones and clavicles endearingly boyish by contrast. He dearly wished to have a beard like Boromir, but there was little hope for that just yet. His eyes were still pure, and his lips full and rosy, but the lines of his jaw and cheekbone grew stronger, showing the future shape of his face.

He was in between two stages of life, neither boy nor young man, but already his looks were attracting glances at least as much as did his lineage. What more, he seemed disarmingly unaware of his own beauty, as close to complete innocence of body and mind as a boy of fifteen could possibly be.

That innocence had but a little while left to last, no doubt. In fact, Boromir was surprised it had lasted so long.

And really,he could not help picking on his little brother over it, for, although the young man did not admit it to himself, this recent change was unsettling him.

He was used to being completely comfortable with Faramir, like he could not with anyone else. But now there were some things – things which had been perfectly enjoyable three, even two years ago – which Boromir instinctively felt to have somehow become inappropriate.

Like when coming home on a particularly cold day they would fight over who was going to take the hot bath first, and in the end would just squeeze in together. Or that favourite entertainment of Boromir’s, to unexpectedly pounce on Faramir, fell him to the bed, pin him down and mercilessly tickle him half to death, letting go only when the boy was so breathless with laughter he could only moan and thrash about.

Not to mention that incident when Boromir came to their chamber early, only to find Faramir there as well, sitting spread-legged on the bed’s edge, hand working feverishly inside his trousers. This was perfectly natural and only to be expected, and such a situation was bound to have happened sooner or later, yet for some reason it had rendered Boromir so horribly, monstrously embarrassed that his first reaction had been to make fun of his brother so viciously he had nearly reduced the poor fellow to tears.

And now this thing… Not in a thousand years would he be able to explain why, but he did not like it.

Deep down he knew he ought to leave Faramir alone already, but it only made him itch to pester the boy all the more.

Luckily for Faramir, at that point in the conversation they left the palace grounds and entered one of the narrower side streets leading to the busy main avenue. Boromir was not near malicious enough to humiliate his brother in public with his teasing. So for the time being he let the matter rest.


Although there were plenty of spare rooms around the royal quarters, neither of the brothers had ever expressed a desire to occupy a separate chamber. However, now it was more and more seldom that Boromir spent the night in their old bedroom.

Sometimes he would be gone for days serving his duty as Captain; but on other occasions it was only for the night. In the latter case he would return by dawn, tired but apparently pleased, his clothes rumpled and a smell of something sweet and unfamiliar around him. It was on these nights and not long military expeditions that Faramir missed him most.

Both envy and jealousy the youth had to fight, awaiting sleeplessly the older brother’s return. And always a great relief he felt when in the grey hours Boromir finally strolled inside and gave him a conspiratorial wink. For it meant that whoever’s company he had enjoyed in the darkness, he came back to Faramir.

The autumn had brought chills and a freshness, as well as early sunsets. Little light was coming from the tall window, and Boromir went to feed the fire in the hearth. He squatted in front of the fireplace, and Faramir, who was sitting on his bed, braced himself. Boromir’s laughing eyes had been too intimidating, and now, when the young man had turned away, was the moment.

The boy asked tentatively: “So, Boromir, you truly think I should do something about… about Linnith and Tiriel?”

Boromir shrugged and answered absent-mindedly: “If you want to.”

“I would… But…”

“But what?” Forsaking the logs, Boromir looked at Faramir over his shoulder, making him blush instantly. “You are giving this matter too much thought. Leave it to the ladies to brood over the meaning of your behaviour. You are to be a man very soon, Faramir. We are meant to live by action – you see an opportunity, you take it. It’s simple,” and at this he returned his attention to the flame. It had already started a happy little dance on the dry wood, and warm reflections were flickering on Boromir’s face and clothes.

“But I don’t know what to do!” Faramir half whispered in desperation. It was humiliating to be saying this, to be lectured on manly behaviour, yet far less so than losing face with one of those bright-eyed, dark haired maidens who seemed to see right through him.

“There is nothing to know, brother.” Although Boromir still sounded annoyed, he spoke more kindly now. “I have no theory to give you. Just as I could not teach you through words alone how to ride a horse or wield a blade.”

“But I am good at learning through words, Boromir. Explain as you will… Just tell me how you do it.”

This time it was Boromir who blushed, although unsure why.

“Well…” he frowned, concentrating hard on arranging the wood just right. “It just… it sort of just happens. I never had to work hard for it, and you probably won’t either. They usually find a way to get you alone, they’ll ask to show you something, or they’ll need help with something. And then they’ll be reluctant to see you go, and they’ll smile, and tell you how strong you are, or brave, that sort of thing. Then it… it happens.”

“What happens? What do you do?”

Boromir groaned under his breath.

“The things,” he said with emphasis.

“Boromir, please. I don’t understand. What things exactly?”

Boromir gave him a pained look. “Things, Faramir. Sometimes, lots of things. And sometimes just a little bit. They may not even want to do anything, only to see that you’re interested. You’ll just know.”

Faramir looked away and frowned.

Earlier that very day father had expected him to just know how to do something, too. Which Faramir also thought fairly obvious, and yet all that his efforts had gained him was a stifled sigh and an averted gaze.

As usual, that had been incredibly miserable for Boromir.

He pursed his lips, never quite knowing how to comfort his brother without showing disrespect towards father. Or how to comfort his brother at all. Had father been this harsh on him, for his part Boromir certainly would not want it mentioned, let alone be given pity for it.

Slowly he walked to his own bed opposite Faramir’s and sat down. There was a distance of several feet between them, but the young man almost physically sensed the boy’s distress.

He spoke softer now: “I am sorry, no one is born with this knowledge. But while learn well you may, I am not a good teacher, Faramir. I was only jesting before, I’ve never actually talked of this, and have no inkling how.”

At this point, unexpectedly even for himself, Faramir stood up and challenged him: “Then be true to your words, brother. You say to live by action, so let us talk no more, just show me.”

Boromir stared at him aghast, and instantly Faramir was abashed and a fierce red flooded his cheeks.

Boromir contemplated him for several long moments, at a loss for what to answer. Sometimes his little brother could really take one by surprise. Then he threw his head back and laughed heartily, making Faramir even more bewildered.

“Well said, Faramir! Never again shall I speak lightly in your presence.” Boromir spread his arms, acknowledging defeat. “But I shall be true to what I preach. I’ll show you.”

He paused, and as he accepted this new role his expression changed unrecognisably; and Faramir was swayed by what he saw.

Boromir was regarding him in such a pleased, contented manner, as though there could not be a sight more comely under the stars. The man appeared at ease and relaxed, but a bright, dark fire had lit up within his usually cool eyes. Faramir felt suddenly dizzy and hot inside his clothes, and grew acutely aware of the two of them being alone behind closed doors.

Boromir spoke: “Come over then,” both an invitation and a command, but the voice giving it warm and playful.

Faramir did as he was told, and a strange lightness was in his head. He stopped in front of Boromir, not looking at the man, only sharply sensing how close they were.

Boromir took him softly on the shoulders and motioned for the boy to kneel.

He was now slightly above Faramir, and he put his hand beneath his brother’s chin and beckoned him to lift his face. A pure and lovely face it was, and to the young man it seemed only natural that he should be the one to be presented this innocence for the taking. Except it was nothing like that.

To kiss Faramir would be wrong.

But he was not going to kiss Faramir. This would be no more a real kiss than swinging a blunted sword at him in fencing practice were the same as to slay him in battle.

At last Faramir looked up and met his eyes. There the boy saw things he knew no names for, yet they spoke to him more clearly than any words could. He felt the same forces waking up in himself, and it rendered him powerless and vaguely afraid.

The hand beneath Faramir’s chin traveled in a gentle caress along his jaw line, brushing lightly on the neck and behind the ear, sending shivers down his spine. Unaware of it, he leant into this warm touch and pressed his cheek into his brother’s palm.

Boromir watched him as though mesmerised, and traced his thumb to the corner of Faramir’s mouth and below his lips. Faramir felt his lips part at the touch and knew that Boromir would have felt his hot and restrained breath on his skin.

Time seemed to pause in its passage.

And then Faramir knew it would happen. Just knew it, like Boromir had said.

Boromir looked searchingly into his eyes, and then his gaze slid to the boy’s lips. The older brother exhaled through his mouth and lowered his eyelids. The last thing the younger one felt before his senses left him, was that the warm hand on his cheek trembled. And then Boromir leant forward and kissed him.

Instantly he drowned in the soft shyness of Faramir’s lips.

He was tempted to wrench them open and pry inside with his tongue, to devour this mouth, to claim it completely. But his brother was so diffident in returning Boromir’s advances… and the young man forced himself to progress slowly. First taking Faramir’s upper lip in between his own and pressing on it gently, he then did the same to the lower one. This he repeated again and again, each time gaining a more enthusiastic response. The boy’s mouth grew warmer and warmer until it seemed almost feverishly hot. Then Boromir tilted his head and kissed him sideways, spreading Faramir’s lips wider apart.

The boy’s hands acted as though off their own accord and came to rest on the man’s arm and heaving chest. When the tender, uncertain hand covered the very spot beneath which his heart was beating, Boromir drew away for a second, as though in a last vain attempt to escape the inevitable. He had a really bad feeling about this. It was not what he had expected, not what he had signed up for at all… And then all his resolves crumbled. Grabbing Faramir on both shoulders, he pulled him forcefully forwards, and bit ravenously into his mouth, and thrust his tongue in between the burning hot lips, and moaned aloud when his actions were all too eagerly returned. And they opened their mouths as far as nature allowed, pressing and rubbing lip against lip, tongue against tongue, all surfaces becoming equally heated and moist, flesh colliding and breaths mingling. Faramir’s arms snaked around Boromir’s neck, and the boy held on as if for dear life.

The air around them had grown dense and charged as though before a storm. Faramir felt disoriented, oblivious to the hard cool floor under his knees, to his brothers’ fingers gripping him none too gently on the shoulders. He had entered an altogether new state of being, where nothing but them was real. All consciousness was burned to nothing by the flame of his brother’s body and touch. Only the heat, the senseless need was left within him, and Faramir did not resist it, could not think of resisting it. A fiery ache went down his spine straight into his loins. His aroused manhood demanded attention, and unconsciously he pressed it against the inner side of Boromir’s thigh.

Without thinking, Boromir reached down and cupped the bulge between Faramir’s legs with his hand.

Faramir’s mouth slid away from the kiss as the intensity of the sensation shook him. This touch was almost too intimate, too erotic to bear. To be so completely, co unconditionally accepted, this involuntary reaction and all, was such pure, simple bliss. Pressing his hardness into his brother’s probing hand, he searched for Boromir’s mouth again, the wetness of the boy’s lips smearing across his brother’s face.

But instead of helping him reseal the kiss, the young man fell away and leapt to his feet, in the process shoving his brother to the floor. Faramir took the fall hard as it came unexpectedly, the sudden pain jolting him back to reality.

Boromir stared down at him, bewildered. The young man raised his hand and ran it across his face, tracing the touch of Faramir’s mouth. He shut his eyes as though to look at the scene was more than he could bear.

“Boromir, please…”

But the sound of his voice became the last straw for Boromir. He groaned and rushed past Faramir and out of the chamber.

That night the Steward’s younger son spent alone.


Boromir walked the streets mindlessly for some time.

He did not watch where his feet were taking him, and eventually he found himself in the lower city, where the common folk dwelled. The sky was by then completely dark and littered with stars, the streets illuminated by warm yellow lamps hung from house walls. Passersby were scarce, and those who came his way and saw his face drew back hastily.

In his hurry Boromir had not thought to take his outer clothes, and was beginning to shiver as the night’s chill crept under his linen tunic.

He swore under his breath. Going back was out of the question, but neither did he fancy the idea of staying out in the cold, one on one with his conscience. What else? He could go to the soldiers’ quarters, there would always be a place for the Captain. But coming there in the middle of the night in his house clothes would look queer, and he hated to look queer, especially before his men. Anyway he was in no state to join a company now.

Then he thought of something. And the more he thought about it, the more he liked it, and even grinned ironically to himself. It was a brilliant solution, actually. It would deal with several problems at once.

Not far from where he had come in his wandering there was a small house. A young woman lived there all by herself: a soldier’s widow, still young and not weary of men. He visited her once in a while to accommodate his needs, nothing more. She always obliged him and never asked anything of him. It was a most convenient arrangement.

She was in her chamber preparing for bed, when she heard a knock on the door, such that only Lord Boromir made. She did not bother to take a light with her when she went to open, for she knew it was him.

He terrified her at first, when he had hardly let her close the door after him and grabbed her by the wrist, and all but dragged her to the bedroom. For a moment she even thought it was not him after all. But in her chamber a candle was burning, so she saw that it was indeed Boromir; and his face was frightful to look at.

The young lord was none too gentle this time. He pinned her to the bed with his weight and wrought her mouth open with a rough and painful kiss, groping her breasts at the same time. But men of war were like that sometimes, who knew what horrors haunted their dreams and waking hours. So she made no sound of distress and only stroked his shoulder gently, hoping to calm him.

He wanted it over quickly, and not bothering to undress her or himself, he merely hiked up her skirt. But just as he was about to lower his trousers, he suddenly realised that he was not ready yet. This was most extraordinarily strange – he had never been slow to arouse.

The man halted and looked her in the face for the first time that night, and she seemed to him like a cornered animal before a hound. She stared back in fear and incomprehension, but she did not dare resist.

Boromir sat up and exhaled heavily. At once he felt very tired, and it seemed absurd that he should be here, doing what he was trying to do.

But he did not give up, it was not like him to abandon a venture midway.

“All right,” he said, “a bit slower now. Take off your dress and we shall do it properly.”

As she complied, he also pulled his tunic off over his head. But when his eyes fell on her naked body, his already dwindling desire died altogether. The ripe roundness of her breasts, the breadth of her hips, the full curves of her thighs – all the things which used to do the trick before, now caused only aversion, repulsion almost. And then he became aware of her scent, the specific womanly scent that had once made his instincts flare up at once. It seemed now sour and pungent, and he could not get rid of it.

Boromir did not say anything this time. Absently he stood up, took his shirt and left.

It would be a long cold night after all.


When morning came, Faramir felt little better.

Pale and weary, his eyes underlined with bluish circles, he left the chamber and descended to the Tower Hall for breakfast.

Steward Denethor was already there. Deep in thought and looking rather pleased with himself over something, he paid little attention to Faramir appearing.

Only two plates were set, and the boy wondered why no meal was served for Boromir. He was afraid to ask, suspecting his brother’s absence had to do with the events of the previous night. Faramir had prayed all would be forgotten with the coming of the new day, and hoped Boromir would already be there, devouring the food and speaking animatedly with Father. His prayers had clearly gone unanswered.

Having barely eaten, he excused himself and headed for the gardens at the Houses of Healing, one city circle below. It was the only green place in Minas Tirith, and Faramir hoped its serene seclusion would aid him in collecting his senses. Perhaps he ought to act as though nothing had happened? Actually, nothing had happened, Boromir was only helping him practice. They got a bit carried away… But it meant nothing!

Faramir slumped onto a marble bench and bowed his head, clasping fistfuls of hair in his hands. Inexperienced as he was, something told him that what had happened meant more than nothing. Moreover, he yearned for it to recur, and wished in shame that Boromir had not stopped. Would he not lose his mind if Boromir kissed him on the neck as he had on the mouth, if he tore apart his shirt, if he undid his trousers and…

It was impossible to see beyond the clouds of confusion swirling in his head. He groaned just as Boromir had done the night before. One thing was clear enough: the blame lay on him. He started it all, made his brother do it. It would be despicable to pretend it had never taken place.

With a fresh resolve to seek Boromir out, Faramir hurried out of the garden.

Not knowing where to start the search, he headed impulsively for their chamber. To his surprise, Boromir was actually there. The young man stood with his back to the door, his soldier’s possessions spread around, a large saddle-bag in his hand, another one at his feet. He did not turn as Faramir walked in, yet the boy saw him grow stiff with apprehension.

“Boromir…” he began and was dismayed to have his voice catch in his throat.

“Father has sent me on a mission with the troops,” the older brother interrupted in an expressionless tone. “I must be gone very soon. Please do not bother me, I need to pack my things.”

Faramir could not inhale. Never had Boromir spoken to him thus, never had he dismissed him as a nuisance, a nosy child. Unwelcome tears welled in the boy’s eyes, and he forgot everything he had been meaning to say to his brother.

He ran out and let the door slam behind him, no longer caring what Boromir would think.


In the evening the Steward and his younger son ate alone again, as Boromir had departed at noon. Faramir could not taste the broth he was absently spooning into his mouth.

“I wish to speak with you, child,” Father said pushing his empty plate away. “For you worry me.”

Faramir froze with the spoon midway to his mouth. He knows. Valar, he knows!

But Denethor looked concerned rather than wrathful, scrutinising the boy with his heavy eyes. “You know well enough a father’s heart is large enough to love all his children at once. Yet it will grant its love to those only who are worthy of it. You are strong of body and sharp of mind, my son, but where is your spirit? We live in a dark time of war, but you do not wish to fight. You brother this morning came to me begging to let him leave the confines of safety, to be gone with the men to protect Gondor with his sword. Boromir cannot stand inaction, but what of you? Does it not shame you that others die to grant you peaceful living, Faramir?”

He went on for some time in this fashion, but Faramir could not hear the words.

“He begged you to let him leave…?”

“Aye, that he did. And I see you are surprised, for Boromir has acted in valour but did not boast to you. Take heed of my word, son, make his action an example for yourself. Do not force me to be disappointed in you.”

Faramir was speechless with outrage. Father sent me on a mission with the troops, you said, dear brother. Father sent, my arse! Is this how little I mean to you?

“I am sorry, Father,” he turned to the Steward at last, his voice defiant, his glare ablaze with hurt. But Denethor mistook the fire in Faramir’s eyes for pride and ambition, and was glad.

“I must have forgotten my place and duty,” the boy went on, and the words seemed to him not his own. Now his father was the only person whose opinion mattered. And he had made it perfectly clear how his favour was to be won. “Forgive me and grant me a chance to prove my worth to you. I shall do whatever deed you see fit for a Steward’s son. Send me wherever I am needed.”

The Steward raised his brows as he sat back in his chair.

“Truly, you give me a reply I had hoped for yet did not expect to hear. On the morrow a group of Rangers are setting out to join the patrols on the Eastern borders. You are good with the bow, you may go with them.”

The Eastern borders.

Any Gondorian knows what those words stand for.

Mordor.

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That’s one very promising beginning and I’ll patiently wait for any update!

— bijou    29 June 2010, 19:52    #

Ok, и сейчас я хочу сказать тебе две вещи, которые я еще не говорила, но которые пришли мне в голову во время чтения: первое, ты будто читаешь мои мысли. Я нахожусь в вечной нужде по рассказам о Фарамире и Боромире (моя любимая пара) и Фарамире-Арагорне (потому что это моя вторая любимая пара). И тут ты вдруг пишешь о них, причем именно в том контексте, который мне всегда хотелось видеть. А во-вторых, нашла еще одну точку соприкосновения – отношения с отцом. Да, именно такими они и должны были быть.
Я просто бузумно рада!Ты отразила все мои желания даже без моих просьб. Фэнкью вэри мач! Но, пожалуйста, не тени слишком долго!

— Anastassiya    30 June 2010, 17:23    #

This is very intriguing. Can’t wait to see what happens next.

— balrog    5 July 2010, 20:54    #

Great beginning. Very nicely done! Definitely will try to be patient… not good at patience!

Alcardilmë    7 July 2010, 06:30    #

Fascinating first chapter. Even the summary was intriguing!

— trixie    10 July 2010, 05:09    #

Very interesting. Faramir has grown so much in the second chapter—you have his thoughts and feelings… I don’t have the right words. Perfectly?

— Bell Witch    17 August 2010, 06:43    #

Dear December,

I’m torn by two thoughts: first, I was upset a little that after such frank declaration of affection from Boromir nothing happened between them and second, I’m even glad that nothing happened, because I would like to see “liaison” not between boys but between adult wise men who perfectly understand what they do.
I very like that Faramir’s sudden outburst of indignation when Boromir displayed his trouble regarding his brother’s condition and I wanted even Faramir to be more stubborn and harsh in that moment.
Your descriptions of Faramir’s formation as a warrior and captain are gorgeous and I’m glad you paid so much attention to this question but I want more emotions and feelings in your story! Give them to me!!! Only you can do it!
And thank you for this wonderful story!

— Anastasiya    24 August 2010, 04:23    #

Nastia, thank you!
Mm, contradictions! In your first comment on this story you said the setting of the relationship was just as you would like to see – but now suddenly you wish they waited till they are older. Why the change, my dear?
And you say you’d rather see grown men who know what they are doing – so you think that if they wait a few years, they will understand themselves and each other better…?
In any case, I’m glad you say you are ‘torn’ by opposite wishes – for my part, I just love being torn like that! And, well, at least one of your wishes is sure to come true.
As for ‘more emotions’ – well, well, I wonder what you are going to say after the next two or three chapters…

December    25 August 2010, 09:19    #

М-да, возможно, противоречие здесь действительно есть, моя дорогая. Но только я ведь не говорила, что хочу, чтобы отношения между ними тут же закрутились. Мне вполне нравится мысль о том, что любовь эта проснулась еще в юности и даже проявилась в некоторой степени, а все то, что было с нею связано в интимном плане, началось уже горазда позднее. И я серьезно считаю, что в молодости (такой ранней, кстати) все делается по глупости, согласно порывам, а вот потом уже более осознанно.
А что я скажу после следующих глав, ты узнаешь только тогда, когда напишешь их, диа. А когда это будет…?

— Anastassiya    26 August 2010, 08:52    #

Настя, спасибо за ответный коммент)
Такая ранняя молодость – это мы, я так понимаю, о Фарамире? А что же старший брат, ему же уже не 15, мозги уже вроде должны быть, или нет?
Тут, конечно, можно бы изречь классическую фразу про то, что любви все возрасты и т.д., а еще вспомнить Ромео и Джульетту и сколько им было лет – хотя у них там, стоит признать, действительно не очень хорошо все кончилось. Но, какая штука, я с тобой спорить и не буду: в юности в голове действительно дури побольше будет, а тут еще первая любоф… Хотя, как говорится, седина в бороду и пр. так что и в зрелых летах никто не застрахован от безудержных страстей… (это уже см. Том 2 данной истории…)
Но мне вот что интересно: мы с тобой опять вернулись к разговору о “порывах” и “осознанности” – и в данном случае уже ты выступаешьв роли поборника здравого подхода к отношениям)А если честно, мне твоя мысль, что любовь проснулась в юности и потом ждала до зрелости – мне эта мысль тоже очень нравится, честно. Будь я их мамой, я б им так и сказала: мальчики, подождите же вы, эк вас! Но, однако же, в данной ситуации от моих взглядов мало что зависит, у них там своя логика… Так что будем посмотреть, во что это всё выльется.

December    26 August 2010, 09:30    #

It looks like you have a long journey planned, and I love the care you are taking with the details along the way.

Faramir’s thoughts on war are very profound and quite in keeping with the character.

Knowing how it will end makes the development of the relationship between the brothers especially wrenching.

— trixie    28 August 2010, 16:29    #

trixie, thank you for reading and leaving your kind comment.

Yes, indeed, the journey ahead is a long one…
It has always greatly intrigued me how it came to be that the brothers had turned out to be so different in the end, and what roads had led them to becoming the men we meet at the time of the War. So the subject is getting quite a bit of attention in this story – and I am glad you find it interesting to follow. Which is not to say, of course, that all we are ever going to get here is serious thoughts on the meaning of life and so forth – people (including readers) do need some light-hearted diversion once in a while, right…?

I also very much like how you use the word ‘wrenching’ to describe the brothers’ relationship. I had not thought of it this way before – but now that you mention it, I find that indeed, at least for certain periods of their lives, the term captures the mood perfectly.

Again, thank you for reading, chapter three is soon to be released.

December    29 August 2010, 11:22    #

I absolutely agree about the need for “light-hearted diversion”! I think that is especially true for those serving in the military and experiencing and witnessing the things they do. Besides, don’t we all experience the full range of human emotions in our lives? I have read fics that portray them as as always stoic and/or angsty. Other times writers are criticized for “inappropriately” inserting humor. Those in the military are especially in need of diversion from all that they experience and witness and I can’t imagine a relationship between brothers that didn’t include light-hearted moments.

— trixie    6 September 2010, 18:29    #

trixie, it’s interesting you bring up dealing with military stress. The subject is going to get quite a bit of attention in the following chapters :)
As for humour, I think itthat, as long as it is of the appropriate kindis never out of place per se. Especially in this fandom, since both the Book and Movie sport quite a few moment one can smile at.

Again, thank you for reading!

December    22 September 2010, 13:53    #

Oh my god. You are so brilliant. I have no words.

— cecilia    22 September 2010, 18:23    #

This story is so finely written — every word is relevant, your characterisation of Boromir and Faramir in-depth and very realistic. Thank you for a rich and fascinating tale! (I’m so happy it’s going to be long — it’s wonderful news for us readers ;-)

— bloodybouffoon    27 September 2010, 16:32    #

Ох-ох, чует мое сердце, ты собираешься нас (т.е. читателей:))) опрокинуть в следующей главе…Такое многообещающее начало и раз! нате вам – конец главы. Нет, это точно подвох. И в следующей главе, наверное, в ком-то из них разыграется чувство “неправильности” происходящего, и все оттянется на неопределенное время.., и вот будет облом!)))))))) Это были так, мысли вслух… Не обижайся))
Ты как всегда на высоте, а Боромир… О, бедный Боромир! И что это Фарамиру вздумалось обнажиться прямо перед ним! Представляю себе, как ему теперь сложно будет объяснить свое “странное” поведение)). Но, видимо, как-нибудь придется. Надеюсь только, ой-ой, тут же нельзя надеяться)), но все же надеюсь, что поведение он свое объяснит своими действиями)).. Жду следующей главы.))

— Anastassiya    28 September 2010, 12:29    #

cecilia, bloodybouffoon, thank you so very much for your kind words! Most appreciated!

Настя, что за слова такие, “облом”, “опрокинуть” – не ты ли говорила, что лучше бы им подождать несколько лет? ;-) Передумала, моя дорогая?)

И мне очень интересно узнать твои мысли в слух, и твои надежды – надеяться, я думаю, вполне даже можно) Так что продолжай)

А что касается Фарамира… Ну, не будет же человек в уличной одежде спать ложиться?))

December    29 September 2010, 16:54    #

ой-ой, милая, не забывай о противоречивости человнеческой натуры))). Сюжет о “взрослой” любви мне, конечно же, самый близкий, однако же когда дело доходит до таких вот моментов, мне вовсе не хочется откладывать их на будущее)). Я вполне терпимо отнесусь, если все случиться, а потом… Сама, короче, решишь))).

— Anastasiya    30 September 2010, 05:51    #

Ах да, это я просто не могу не написать)) – помнишь, ты писала, что не любишь, когда мальчики начинают “тупить”? Хи-хи! Вот я тоже не люблю! И если их губы сейчас коснуться друг друга и на этом все кончиться только потому, что Боромир решит свалить, я буду ОЧЕНЬ-НУ-ОЧЕНЬ-И-ОЧЕНЬ сердита)) и раздражена)). Ну, в общем-то, я думаю, ты этого не сделаешь.

— Anastasiya    30 September 2010, 05:59    #

A wonderfully written story, as usual. I especially love the second chapter, and the stark contrast between the man Faramir (the warrior) and the boy Faramir (the lover). By the way, the summaries are really good.
Gaaah, authors should not be allowed to provoke such strong curiosity and longing in their readers then leave them hungering for the next chapter… I am impatient to read the rest!

Nerey Camille    30 November 2010, 15:25    #

Ah – a different sort of cliff-hanger – and still a cliff-hanger. My goodness – the depth of your writing is astounding. The depth of what you reveal about the brothers is even more astounding. I adore this story! But – I was looking at the opening blurb and am beginning to think this is not going to end well…… Does anything ever end well for Boromir?

Alcardilmë    2 December 2010, 04:33    #

I am at a loss for words; you write so beautifully, so romantic, so…you just light up my dark, dull winter days with this wonderful story! :) Thankyou!

— Admirer :)    3 December 2010, 15:03    #

what a wonderful story! so beautiful and touching.
i was happy for the brothers, but at the same time, worried for them as well. kind of bittersweet.
thank you so much.

— traveller    12 June 2011, 17:56    #

Bravo! You manage to let us know in detail all of the details of the changes in Boromir while still letting us know that he isn’t dwelling or thinking deeply on these matters. Also, you manage to point out his prideful nature in a way that does not make him an unsympathetic character. I feel that these things are an integral part of Boromir’s character (and, unfortunately, his eventual
downfall). Again, well done!

— trixie    12 June 2011, 19:13    #

Just noticed I’m so behind on answering comments here…
Thank you, everyone, so much for reading and saying all the kind things! It means very, very much to me.

Hm, I do indeed find it quite impossible to write Boromir without at least a bit of bitterness, the notion just seems to follow him around. And to me that bitterness somehow makes him only the more sympathetic. I remember, as a small child I used to be strongly annoyed by all his human flaws of character which were all the more irritating in contrast to the other protagonists’ total goodness and maturity. But with time I have somehow come to feel a very sharp fondness for him precisely because of this. Not to mention how addictive it is to work with him, he provides such a grateful soil for all sorts of personal conflict :)

December    14 June 2011, 11:37    #

Very good story. Lord of the Rings male pairings are my favorite sort of fanfiction to read. And my most favorite character is of course Faramir. And what makes a more dramatic story than two brothers participating in a love that is by law forbidden? Nothing! I will definitely be dropping in regularly to check for updates. You are a very good writer and I would be happy to read other stories written by you. I would begin writing fanfictions like these myself if only I had a decent Shakespearean tongue!

— Al'iyah    26 June 2011, 22:54    #

I absolutely love this story. It is so sexy its incendiary. Great, believable characters with depth and complex issues. Well done. Anxiously await more.

— petey156    7 October 2012, 19:34    #

I like it. I drew some pictures yet to it. Will you continue ?

— katiedaly    21 January 2013, 20:20    #

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December

Greetings, fellow fan, and welcome!

What to expect to find here: All the stories are based on Book-verse for looks and personalities, although you will often find the canon bent (hehe) in terms of events. Please prepare for an unhurried, often bitter-sweet read with lots of sexual tension.

A bit about me for those interested: feisty redhead headquartered in New Zealand. Living in a wooden house in the old forest not far from the sea – probably goes some way to explain why I write what I do. Other than reading and writing, my passions are music, visual arts, travel, gardening, dance, horses, acrobatics, medieval martial arts, jewellery making, banter, and above all chocolate.

Was introduced to Tolkien at the tender age of six, was never the same since.

Always keen to collaborate with all ye good folke in the fandom. Feel free to get in touch if you’re looking for a beta reader, too. Please, also, if you’re one of the dudes in the fandom, I would really really appreciate if you could please take a moment to share a bit of your perspective on how authentically my stories portray relationships between men.

Also, if you’re looking to visit New Zealand, happy to offer a bed and breakfast (second breakfast negotiable).

Cheers.