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If you can't see me as who I am, then why bother? (NC-17)

22 April 2012 | 74699 words | Work in Progress

Chapter 11

Boromir squeezed Faramir’s hand and took a deep breath before speaking just as nervously as before “I feel like such a fool for not seeing what went on right in front of me. I hope you can forgive me.”
Boromir barely had the nerve to look his beloved Faramir in his lovely grey eyes in the middle of his rigid stone face which was spacing out in the open air. Faramir woke from his thoughts by the humble plead from his strong brother who seemed now like a repentant old man, and looked abrupt at Boromir lightly confused and surprised.
“What do you mean? Forgive you?”

Boromir met his little brother’s searching eyes, and Faramir continued seeing his brother’s pleading look “None of it had anything to do with you, dear brother. On the contrary, you have done such good and great things for me that I must ask for your forgiveness. I have been suppressing your full potential and holding you back…”

Faramir stopped talking as Boromir rose from his chair and stared strictly at him. Faramir knew he had said something he deeply disagreed with. Boromir would always expand his chest, not on purpose though, and rise whenever someone said anything he’d strongly disagree with.
Just when Faramir didn’t think he could feel any smaller, his huge brother grabbed the edges of the bed and stared him fierce but gently in the eyes. Faramir could recall a small smile, but was not sure. Boromir spoke silent and lovingly firm “You have never ever been a suppression of my potential, nor have you ever been the pain in the butt I have so often told you.”
They both smiled, and the elder brother kept on even warmer

“I loved every moment you came running to me in my studies where everyone referred to you as a disturbance. My heart smiled just as much as my lips when you jumped onto my lap and you shook my tunic to come play with you in the garden. I loved every moment of your teasing voice when I went through puberty”
Their smile emerged to grins
“Even though you have somehow gotten me evolved in your schemes and we both paid the penalty, I was glad to stand by your side. I loved every moment when I felt stupid because you read better than me, and had to help your five year older brother with his studies” Boromir kissed Faramir on his forehead, but his smile withered “I only wish I could prevent father from treating you the way he did.”

Faramir lowered his gaze for a brief moment to collect an answer. He gave it to Boromir shortly after with loving eyes
“Aye, he did not treat me right at times, but I did not make it easy for him either. I believe you in your loving words, dear brother…” he couldn’t help it but laugh
“…and forgive me if I hurt you by my remark.” thinking back at his brother’s serious face rising like a living mountain, his eyes laughed still. Boromir tried still to seem serious, but failed as his smirk made its way, and he studied his younger brother who stared back patiently.

Finally Boromir said “I must thank you for making my schemes seem like nothing. I must be honest with you Faramir, at times where you met the penalty, I went off easy, but I hope I made up for it by being there for you afterwards.”

Faramir got serious as well
“You sure did. You always did what was expected of you, and I believe it must have been a heavy burden for you. To be the perfect son for such a demanding father. Thank you, Boromir, for being such a great brother and support.”

He placed his palm at his brother’s broad chest while thanking him and Boromir leaned in to plant a kiss on his cheek. Faramir accepted it with a smile, but closed his eyes as chills rendered through his body at Boromir’s whisper “Just you wait until I become your lover.”
Despite of Faramir’s pale skin, a blush appeared on Faramir’s cheeks and his heart beat by fear and anticipation.

Boromir placed his hand on Faramir’s bare chest and stroke it gently. Feeling Faramir’s heart beat in such a rhythm he pondered once more on Faramir’s virginity. Boromir’s up to no good squinting made Faramir stare suspiciously at him
“What? I see that face of yours, Boromir.” The older brother looked at the tender nipples and wondered if Faramir knew how he could make of his brother by giving them some attention.

He grinned and caressed his brother’s cheek “Nothing, I will go get us something to eat. After that I must tend to some duties, but shortly after, I will come back.”
Faramir sighed and smiled not sure if he’d go for that. Boromir giggled and tousled his hair before leaving with a laugh.
Faramir wondered what on Arda his brother could be up to now, and smiled back before pondering in the tall ceiling while waiting.

He intended to wait for his brother, but when he did return, the young Captain had fallen asleep due to his weariness. And the older brother sat with his little one for a while and was told by the healers that they would make sure he ate after awakening. The heir had duties to tend to.

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